O.D

If I overdose on a drug...I won't die,
I'll wake up with faces,
Faces...staring at me with wonder,
Questions...tears...remorse full of regret
Genuine hearty emotion.
If I overdose on something else,
It won't be enough,
I won't die...
I'll keep going,
Keep searching
I'll get physically unwell,
Mentally fatigued,
Emotionally confused...unstable,
Wait,I'm already that,
Well further more...
But there's one,
Something I've overdosed on,
Sacrifice...
I sacrificed myself,my mind,my time,my energy,my sanity..
My soul...my body...my will,
I gave everything...
And now...I have nothing left to give...nothing left to sacrifice
I'm crying with my thoughts...
Crying with my words,
Crying in my dreams...
I have no tears of expression,
No more fears of oppression
Wooing me...is depression.
What confided in me was my sanity,
What came alive in me was my humanity,
But no more...
There's no trust anymore
So it all just drifted away...

Sonia.